August 19, 2009

It's Amazing How Life Works Out

This week seems to be a week of reflection. I've been looking back on my life and I'm starting to realize something. Yes, I've had hard times, but you know what? I love my life. It is my gift. A couple of days ago I started to freak out and had a quarter life crisis I guess you could say. Everyone around me is either getting engaged, married or popping out a kid. This is great and I'm happy for everyone, but I'm only 20. My ovaries aren't going to dry up any time soon. I have time. All the same, I look back and I see my life could have taken different turns. For example,

1. I could have been married by now. If I would have kept a boyfriend and not scared them off or dumped them, I could have a nice shiny rock on my finger and most likely a kid either crawling around or in my belly.

2. I could have been a contender.... (sorry. Had to do it)

3. I could have been a professional weightlifter, on my way to the olympics. Yeah I know. Pretty excellent. I could be having full training days, watching every single thing I eat, and no life.

Now someone might look at these and think Why didn't you do one of these? They both sound like excellent options. Or someone is probably asking why didn't you take up the olympic offer? How many people get the option to do that in their lives? I answer you with this statement. I love my life. I am content with it right now. I love the fact that I am in school, pursuing my dream. I have a wonderful guy in my life. I'm working a job, trying to put myself through college with no debt once I get out. I'm busting my butt to try and make it. Of course it is hard, but I love every minute of it. It took me a couple of days to realize this, but I'm good now. I think. I wouldn't trade a minute of it.