TWLOHA has a fairly new shirt out, as shown below.
I will be the hopeful. So much stuff is going on in life that I have to be hopeful. It seems like life is falling apart, but I know I can't go back to the way things were. I can't. If I did, my life would be worse than it is now. Hopefully sometime in the future I will be able to have things the way things were, but for now, I have to be strong in my position.
September 10th was World Suicide Prevention Day. This really got me thinking. I have lost friends to suicide. I will not lose another. This is another reason why I want to go into psychology. Why I want to open my rehab center. Why I want to help others. No family, no friend, no acquaintance, no teacher, no doctor should go through that pain, seeing what happens or what comes out of that particular action.
People don't know what is really happening in my life. And I'm sort of fine with that. I'm just going through a lot of pain. A lot of decisions must be made. For one of the first times in my life, this is truly my decision. I'm not consulting my parents. I am paying for these actions. This is truly something that I must do. Not my parents. Not my friends. Not my doctors. Me. I must do this. I hate to deny this access into my life to the people I love dearly, but that is the way it must be. I will tell you along the way what I am willing to divulge.
In conclusion, my heart is still breaking. Not only for romantic reasons, but also for humanity. I cannot stand this pain, but there is worse pain than this. I just want to help those who are going through this pain.
Help me Christ to get through this season in my life. Thank you for bringing me new friends and for continually sending the old ones back. Without which I would not survive. Let me show love to the world. Help me to get through my days with the hope and joy that I have in you.
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